More Of "Chapter1"

Every email I get from my birth mother I learn a little more information. I know her name, where she lives (which is a lot closer then I thought it would be!!!) I know her medical history. I know she has a 29 year old son in Miami. I know how much I weighed when I was born and how long I was. My stomach has been in knots!! I have been forwarding the emails to my sister and keeping her in the loop. I know I have said it before but, this is surreal. I keep thinking it is going to be a joke. I can't even describe my thoughts and feelings.

I have looked her up on facebook, can't see anything because we aren't friends...she suggested maybe we could be so I could see her info. I'm NOT ready for that!!! That is too much of my life I don't want shared at this time. She has said over and over that she would like to meet my sister and I and our families.

Her 29 year old son does not know about us. She hopes to tell him someday.... How bizarre!!
It is all so WEIRD!!!! Bear with me as I keep posting about all of this!!!

Contact

Well, the last time I wrote I was contemplating responding to a letter I recieved from an agency that helps find birth relatives. I did lots of praying and talked to some very dear friends whom I know has my best interest at heart. I also know these friends are very wise and give great counsel. I felt and so did they that I should respond to the caseworker. Our small group had met the day I received the letter and we had talked about the sermon the previous Sunday and it was on grace and mercy. My friend says maybe this your chance to show some mercy. I also am wanting to try to find out some medical history...

I have a lot of emotions flowing through my mind. You don't even know!!!

I let the caseworker know that I was willing to exchange emails with my birth mother and my name. At this time this is all I want her to know. I set up a separate email account strictly for contact with the caseworker and my birth mother.

Yesterday I talked to the caseworker and she let me know my birth mother's info would be coming in the mail. She also told me her name and her email address.

Today I received my first email from her!! Talk about weird! I don't even know what to think!! It seams so surreal. Never in a million years did I think I would have to think about this or be writing about it.

Please keep praying for me. Thanks for letting me ramble!!